Winter

8 Mar 2022

Winter i am not human


i have claws. i have fangs. i want to tear and destroy. i want to break everything i have. i want to bite i want to feast.

i dont want to use my hands i dont want to use my words. i want to run away and be alone. i want to scream at anyone who comes near me. i want to tear it all down. i want it all to burn.

i hate people. i hate sounds. i hate language. i hate what i have to be. i hate what i am forced to do. i hate what i cant do.

i hate i hate i hate i hate

i want to kill. i want to tear my claws through the soft flesh of your neck and tear out your throat. i want to feel blood dripping from my fangs and flesh pulling through my teeth.

i want to roam the snowy forest alone and unbothered. i want to feel the wind through my fur. i want to hear the raven's call. i want to smell the pine trees. i want to curl up in my warm den and sleep.

i want to kill the stupid hunter with his guns. i want to kill the loggers with their trucks. i want to kill the rangers and the scientists who try to tame my woods. i want to destroy everything man has ever made. i hate his life i hate his technology i hate how he says that i cant be what i am unless its in a certain way, a certain time, not too much, not too wild, just enough to feel better about how much damage his stupid insipid life had brought.

i hate how he has taken my life and my control and made it his and taken away everything that made life worth living until i am just a broken husk with no soul and the birds are gone the trees are gone the wind is gone and the forest is dead and its all for the sake of his greed and his money and his selfish need for more more more and its all for fucking nothing.

i want to be free. i want to be alone again. i want this to stop.

LEAVE ME ALONE

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i hate you i hate you i hate you i ahte oyu i hate you i hate you i hateo you i hate you i hate you i hate oyyu i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i htate you i hate you

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im so fucking tired